She starts slowly,

Her hands, circling gestures, hinting to far off places:

Familiar,

In the way that long gone memories suddenly reappear,

New and old,

As the eyes of a newborn might tell.

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Her story moves,

Along the lines of his sweaty brow:

Furrows of dusty habits, streaked and stale.

And his face: a worn vista of hope,

A shell of the dances they once rehearsed.

.

She conjures over sagging eyes,

Rising to bright skies:

That one window they have left,

Where thirst and promise mingle

On that one day the afternoon light hangs,

Suddenly, still and unmoving.

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Their separation: a restless wait,

But marked with patience,

As he turns, fetching verses from a box of years,

Stepping on the one plank, long gone warped and dry,

Creaking, and sounding the first note

Of a long song they will sing once again.

But when you called my name,

In this time of bicycles and fresh afternoons,

I stood where the sidewalk turned west.

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Leading me by the vacant windows

Where the sophisticates would sit,

High on the wine of their indifference,

Their laughter: cruelly mocking relief,

Really, though, just fragile threads,

Held fast by nothing more than frayed ends

Giving way to a life gone easy and fallow:

This was not your voice.

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Further down the way,

Etched across hunkered, toiling hopes,

A lifetime of soured chances,

Spent casting ropes, and thinking

Oh, the thinking!

Surely this time,

A loop will catch,

And pull the whole of us along.

No, this was not your town.

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In that time of bicycles and fresh afternoons,

The fired afternoon glory of the grass

Still holding fast to its grand summer celebration

Marks the path,

From where you once called my name,

Calling us all home again

For the wind and rain to hold us fast.

Our ideals, then, were liquored with blackberries,

That would form the evening air,

Into a sweet, heavy stillness.

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Your dappled voice was almost hidden

Along the waters edge, and in the eddies

Your hair would drape over the smooth curve of rock,

While your eyes reflected the far off storms.

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The banter of our dreams then:

You following the worn path of bears,

Guiding us over the barbed wire,

And crossing into our place.

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There you whispered raindrops into my ears,

And I cobbled together water stories.

Those were dreams we had then,

Savored,

And marked in the hollows of sand

Filling the long, easy spaces between stones.

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I don’t remember the pear tree then,

Why didn’t we reach up it’s long trunk,

Pruned in the year of bears,

Clothed in glistening leaves of poison oak,

And held fast by thorns?

…

Where I go now there is a tree,

It grows tall and straight, and,

In some years, hangs heavy with fruit.

I sit on the stories between the sand,

Biting down into the almost ripe memories

Of the love we shared, and still lingers

In the spaces between stone and water.

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Nearly full and sweet,

Juices rolling off the stone,

Soaking into the sand, like our tears:

Watered by the storms that you dreamed of then.

The screen door,

closing two-clapped

rickety wood

Gone forgotten,

Unheard over years.

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It still signals flies,

kids chasing kids,

And mockingbird songs

In fig tree shade.

Summer’s paradise and ease with just that:

A clappety-clap.

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Inside:

Suppertime fly on sliced red tomato

Red onion avoided.

Chores, wanderings, and a boring anxiety

All screened in nicely,

with a pantry full of secrets,

And secret pantries,

To fill in the gaps between claps.

Who knew?

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The movement: her book title words,

Sentences concealing poems,

Complete and tidy,

All wrapped in a pause,

Searching for one more verse,

Lines of freedom etched across

Long marks on a working floor.

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Yet, her life, in minutes, days or odd moments

Could hang up on the tiniest things,

And go spinning neatly out of control,

Just barely.

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Clappety-clap goes the thin wood frame,

Rickety against the unshakable,

While the pantry door sits open:

There is work to be done now.

Euphoria is in ample supply along the river these days.

Coaxed by the sun,

It sparkles on the leaves,

Trembles on the water,

Casting goosebumps across my skin.

The old hipster church in the trees had long gone bad and soured.

It was a long time coming, alot of thought went into the decision,

But, really, you just turned and went,

Staggering down the path to the river bank.

I’d see you standing there, ankle deep in the cool water,

On a hot summer afternoon just as the breeze kicked up the valley.

You couldn’t hear the moaning procession that was soon to follow

From the trees, down the trail, and to the water.

Fortunately, you were long gone then.

The breeze had carried you off: like the last stammering wailings

Of tired parishioners fading into the evening woods,

never to be heard again.

I don’t see you there anymore,

But sometimes, in the morning, I hear the crack of a twig in the woods,

And wonder if you sit there,

waiting.

I walked to that place once, climbing back up to the high place

Where it once stood, and wondered if there were tears,

Did you hold them back?

Or let them fall to the water, to float downstream.

Or maybe you are now the song of birds, the orange of pumpkin,

The splashes made by moving water.

Maybe you are the cackling laughter from the old lady that lives in the shack,

Just around the bend.